Let's Get On With It, I Guess

The pre-op with my OB went pretty well today.

He's very reassuring.  I hope everything goes as well as he went on about it going.  I felt pretty good when I left.  Hell, I would even say I felt sort of optimistic.  Like, "Alright, let's do this then."

But after I got home tonight and things started to settle down I started to feel that same dread creeping in again.  My OB mentioned doing something called "tubal perfusion" during the lap, which is similar to an HSG to check my tubes.  I wanted to get more information about this and so I started to Google things (something he told me NOT to do so much of) and then this happened:

I don't know why.  Nothing I've found has been especially terrifying.  I guess it's just that constant feeling of, "Idon'twantodothiswhythefuckisthishappeningohgod".  

I did read something positive tonight while I was researching all of the other doom and gloom stuff. 

After excising all endometrial implants with the laparoscope, up to 75 percent of these women will become pregnant within twelve to eighteen months without additional medication. If no pregnancy occurs within six, the patient is older than 35 years of age or, has been attempting pregnancy for over two years, superovulation and intrauterine insemination is often successful.

Hell, don't know if this information is unbiased or scientific, but I like it.  I need to hold on to it.

On a positive note, I channeled a bit of energy into an impromptu mini makeover in my bathroom.  After my appointment, DH and I stopped at Target (swoon) to get a new shower curtain and bath mat.  Those then led to new wall art and a towel.  We have a bit of a beachy theme to our little house and the bathroom now reflects a little more of that passion with the colors and accents we have.

This is the new shower curtain, which is MUCH lighter in real life:

And this is the new bath mat:

I am not super in love with the photos I chose to hang in the bathroom and even though I just dropped $30 on frames and prints from Meijer, I am debating replacing them ASAP.  My house is too small to hang something I don't really love.  Or at least that's how I justify it.  :)