Day 3

I am feeling pretty horrible today.

I didn't think I'd have so much cramping today but it feels like I'm on my period, which really sucks because from what I've read online you should start feeling better by Day 3- not worse.

This of course causes my Type A to freak and worry that something horrible is happening.

I'm also having a hard time today with the fact that the doctor wasn't able to do a whole lot during surgery. There was, of course, no way of knowing where the Endo would be and what it had done until he opened me up but now I'm feeling like, "So what was this all for if not to just stress me out?" So far I know: 1) I have "moderate" Endo, 2) I may have Adenomyosis, 3) I am always going to have pain.  And since I am in more pain today than I have been in a long while, I'm feeling especially sorry for myself.

I want to get back to this time last year.

Back when TTC was this exciting thing that was coming up and we were worried about getting in a few more vacations before the baby.

I want to go back to when it was a GIVEN that we would be parents.