I don't know if I'll ever get over the last year.

This has taken so much from me- things that I had the right to plan for.  

I should have gotten to tell my grandparents good news.

Or felt their hugs when none of it came true this year.

I could have had them another year or another ten and it still wouldn't be enough.

I don't know if I'll ever get over the last year.

And I don't even know if this is the worst of it.